"Those who bring sunshine to others cannot keep it from themselves." Peter Pan
On Friday I painted my sister Lauras table and chairs multi-colored (like at Cafe Rio). It was so fun and I think they look pretty good if I do say so myself. On saturday, I spent the whole day in the kitchen attempting to can peaches and jam. Seriously, it took all day he;lping keep Jack entertained with playdough and artwork while I peeled the peaches and then to clean up a sticky gooey room splattered in peachy goo and then to clean up the play dough and art supplies.When it was all over I had converted my $20 box of tree-ripened peaches to 3 pints of freezer jam, 9 quarts of peaches and 2 quarts of what my mom calls spicy peach butter... I was sweaty and sticky and thinking to myself, "Self, why did you just spend all that time and effort doing that? Couldn't you have just bought peach jam at the store for $20 and saved the hastle?" I'd like to say that I just really like knowing exactly what's in my food, but I would prefer not to know my jam has 5 cups of sugar and some strange chemical called pectin, seriously, what is pectin? The truth is that I like feeling productive and I like creating things.
At Women's Conference on Saturday night, President Ukdorf said that the desire to create is a deep yurning that we all have, especially sisters. He said that this is because we are daughters of an endlessly ceative and imaginative God. Creation means bringing to existence something that wasn't there before. As a mother, I helped create my children and I can be creative as I teach them. Sometimes I just look at Jack's little boyish body and am so amazed that it grew inside of me and that I "made" him. Besides obvious stuff like paintings, watches, or Cafe Rio furniture, I can create gardens, laughter, and special memories for my family.
President Ukdorf also talked about how serving others makes us stronger and helps us overcome our grief. As a new Mommy, I get frustrated sometimes. If I spend too much time at home, I get ancy, like cabin fever and don't feel productive, but if I don't spend time at home, I feel guilty. I feel like I'm so absorbed in my immediate familys needs that I can't see beyond my home and miss how I fit into the big picture. Pre. Ukdorf said that as we serve, we will discover our own happiness and as we sacrifice, it opens windows for us to receive blessings an that as we lift others, we ourselves, will rise higher. I know this is true and experienced it this week. I accepted two assignments to cook food for muual and decorate a cake for cub scouts and those two assignments seemed to give my week mor meaning. Pres. Ukdorf promised us that as we notice loneliness and despair, we can be instruments in God's hands to answer prayers and as we immerse ourselves in service, our lifes will be more meaningful and happier and that God will encircle us in the arms of His love. I want to do this. I want to be available to help others and reach out.